Thursday, January 11, 2007

I'm a Worrier

Alright, well I am. I worry about everything from why I couldn't get through the run last night (actually I do know this...it was cold and SOMEONE didn't dress warm enough) to my parents to my future to the fact that I have about zero dollars to "what will I do when I grow up" to I'm going to be a lousy parent because I am going to be so worried that I won't let them do anything (yes I realize that I am years away from the kiddies, but that doesn't mean I can't start worrying now....) to well anything

BLAHHHH

there.

I have a Doctors appointment today to go and talk about my blood pressure issue and to see if it's stress based or if I really have a problem. I would be very surprised if there is something really wrong with me considering a 27 year old marathon runner who eats "pretty" healthy should not have high blood pressure. What really pisses me off was back in college when I ate very unhealthy (bagels and cream cheese.....oh dorm food how I loved you) was super stressed about classes, drank and partied like there was no tomorrow I had a very low blood pressure reading....maybe I should go back to that spectacular way of life.

Anyways.

I had to tell my boss what happened yesterday since I am leaving work early for the appointment and so will be missing out on meeting with him and he asked if I knew what it was and I told him that I didn't know, but that the last 4 weeks of my life have been pretty awful (read : worst in my life) so perhaps that had something to do with. At least this gives me something else to worry about.

Right the run :-) We went about 3.75 miles out and Jason was frozen and I was not great, but felt ok. Since there is no need for him to get even colder since we had to go another 2.5 or so out we turned around. No big deal in the end. The weather looks awesome for tomorrow (does sarcasm work in blogging?). Mid-upper 30s and raining all day, so I am hoping that I'll be able to LT it up with not too many problems.

Alright. maybe I should take some shots of whatever before the docs appointment to calm me down.......kidding......really.

8 comments:

Full Metal Lunchbox said...

Hang in there, Leah!  The fact is, January just plain sucks.  In a few weeks it will all be over.

In the meantime: just keep running.   :)

Bob said...

Buck up little leah, can I call you little when you are as tall as I am?? A glass of red wine a night it's an age old secret. The harder the day, the bigger the glass. hahaha

I was frazzled yesterday when I left work, late as usual, thank god for running is all I can say.

Laurie said...

"Hi, my name is Leah and I am a worrier." Admission is the first step!

I hope everyone goes well at the doctor.

Tara said...

Try not to fret Leah...hopefully everything is ok and you find a way to de-stress. Great job with running outdoors...I just can't do it. I am SO not a cold weather person. I can't even stand walking from my office to the car. BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!

Firefly's Running said...

Leah, these 4 weeks were not SO bad. Hell, you partied with Josh, Barb, Mike and I on NYE...and we all had LOTS of fun and had a few good laughs. Right? That's a positive moment...or evening.

You will be fine. Just relax and roll with the punches. You can do it!

Full Metal Lunchbox said...

I just re-read your post and now I'm starting to worry, too.

Please update your blog as soon you hear from your doctor, so we know you're OK!

Josh said...

From one worrier to another ... it'll be okay. I keep having to remind myself "Paranoia will destroy ya..."

Steve said...

I Know It's Easy To Say....
But Don't Worry !,It's Has Been The Baine Of My Life,I am Now 50 Years Old And I have Been A worrier For The Past 30 Years..
It Cost Me The Only Woman I have Ever Loved And 25 Years Of Marriage,I now Live On My Own, I have More Money Than I have Ever
Had In My Life, A Good Job, My Own House & Car, And Guess What...
I STILL WORRY !!!
Best Wishes
Steve.S